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Happy Sunday!  I have not blogged in a long time but have kept up with my Inspirational Wednesdays.  So much has happened over the last few months.  I had blogged about the complications of depression, stress of work and the ability to actually have the guts to move on and start over.  Saying it out loud or blogging about it is entirely different from the actual reality of starting over.  I knew my “Starting Over” time was coming soon but I just didn’t know when it would happen or my reaction to it.  I just knew that there was a huge change coming into my life and although I didn’t show it I was scared to death of it but I took each day in stride knowing that the face of that change would open itself to me.

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October 23rd of last year is the day the process of Starting Over actually began.  I received the call from Human Resources on my job that I was being terminated effective immediately.  I knew my performance at work was suffering and that I was at the end of my thirteen year journey with my consulting position at an educational publishing company.  It had been filled with so many great times and I enjoyed all of the travel.  No other job would I be able to claim that I had been in 45 out of 50 states.  I learned so much and I truly thank my former employer for the opportunity to have served  a company with excellent products for our future generations as we teach and prepare our children for the grown up world.  Through no fault I was just burned out.  The stress of traveling 95% of the time, never being home, missing family events, an ailing family member, no relationship, missing friends and putting all of my dreams on hold because my dreams were to be the company’s took its toll on me physically, spiritually and emotionally.  I had no idea the stress I was under until I was released from that position.  Within days people who came into contact with me commented on how good I looked or sounded.  I was happier than I had been in years and most importantly I was here for my family.

The Starting Over had begun.  My body literally washed itself of all the toxins that had been stored inside.  Stress will do that to you.  I had no idea how toxic my body had become.  With all of the new time on my shoulders you would think that I would begin to look for work, clean my house, catch up on reading or a whole host of things on that inevitable “to do” list.  I didn’t do any of those things.  I kind of just floated day in and out in a state because to be honest I didn’t know where to begin.  My life had taken on a new direction and the compass couldn’t steer me in the right direction.  It was about that way for three weeks when I decided I needed something uplifting in my life.  Something to take care of and that I could love unconditionally.

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Enter Cosmo!  I picked Cosmo up on November 17th.  He is my Maltese puppy!  You may think really a dog?  Yes because he helped me to get back on track.  Cosmo helped me to see purpose in getting up each morning because he demanded to be taken outside to the bathroom and then fed his breakfast.  He helped to establish a routine that I was so desperately seeking since my life had been living out of a suitcase and hotels for so long.  Order was established in my house and I got back into my side business that had been neglected for so long.  I have not quite started writing again for my books but the desire is back and I am working on carving out an hour everyday to get some writing done.  One of the fun things I have been doing is cooking and trying out recipes.  It is wonderful not eating in restaurants all of the time and discovering the grocery store again.

Currently I am studying for my insurance exam to sell insurance strictly to teachers which keeps me in the field of education.  I love that it will be my business and I own it.  I will be blogging more and getting all of my interests going again.  If you find yourself unemployed look at it as a time of rest and a journey of new direction.  Take the time to focus on you and what you would really like to do as there are so many opportunities and possibilities in this world.  My friends actually have named my unemployment “funemployment” and that would be a correct assessment.  I have been having fun rediscovering all of the wonderful opportunities that this wonderful life can afford each and every one of us.  This phase in life reminds me of the Dr. Seuss book “Oh The Places You’ll Go”  It is a great graduation gift but I like it because it is for any phase of life.  It is the perfect book for me right now and yes I have read it since being unemployed so I will leave you with this note:

“Congratulations! Today is your day. You’re off to Great Places! You’re off and away!  You have brains in your head.  You have feet in your shoes.  You can steer yourself any direction you choose.  You’re on your own. Ad you know what you know.  And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go!”

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Now with your brains in your head and feet in your shoes where are you going to decide to go?  Where will it take you today, tomorrow, next year, ten years from now?  You are the master of your destiny and yes Starting Over is tough but think of the places you’ve been and the many more destinations in front of you!  Where will you go?